amsterdam. near rijik musuem. i cant rem how to spell it. its dutch mind u if u re laugung at me right now.
at balcony last sat after dinner with family and honey bunny.

i fucking tried t upload a picture but blogger just suck to the core(the pix r up now after i wrote these)


fuck


i am trying to do my work. i cannot settle on anything

i feel so lost and depressed about work

how!!


i couldnt find much a inspiration at the library today because the fucking book tt i wanted was nt available


ccb


however i reserved it at kino taka tmr. i will go get it. The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler. very inpsiring book.


i hope it is the fucking right one or else i m gonna freaking kill the sales girl/guy!!!


today at the library was not exactly fruitful because 3/4 OF THE BOOKS I WANTED WAS UNDER THE REPOSITORY WHICH WILL TAKE A WEEK FOR ME TO GET THEM!FUCKING IDIOTIC. . i searched for materials to get the perfect role model. i still cannot digest it now. who is a perfect female role model to you?


well for sure i know its not the below:

mariah carey. too slutty
madonna. freaky shit
britney spears. holy cow, was that your cow which got lost last summer?
dita von teese . i really like her. but it is personal
waris dirie. she is nice but seem like a drug addict
tyra banks. kinda boring
hillary duff. lost teenager


i think enough of my nonsense.


tts all. let me rotttt..