This has been a very hectic week that i thought i was dreaming almost. But i was wrong, i was not dreaming. I was indeed living in this little world of mine which used to revolve around just school and beading. Now school is over and i am trying to decide whether to pursue a degree or to just go out and work?Or perhaps do my beading full time? I had no answers to it all until only this week i decided to apply for the nafa ba course. I wasnt ready at all actually but felt that perhaps i should give it a try? Carrying this easy carefree attitude, i walked into the interview room not knowing what sort of questions would come hurtling at me.

To my surprise i was so nervous that words didnt come out right and everything messed up. i ended up listening to my lecturer lecture me all about design and how much do i want to do it? I cannot just do it because i like it. i must do it because.... i love it? and i know i shouldnt have been such a lazy student half the time when i was doing my diploma in nafa. But of course there were times whereby i worked pretty hard and put in a reasonable amount of effort and scored pretty good grades. but that hardly happens because queena has always been the type that wants to complete her work fast n get over with it asap.

That has become a habit somehow i believe. But upon hearing what my lecturer said to me, it was pretty much of a wake up call and it set me thinking. During that moment when those words hit me, i did felt the sudden urge and motivation i had when i worked hard for a certain module. But then again i question myself if this motivation can last me throughout this course that i told myself that i want very much?

i couldnt give a straight yes. I questioned myself if i had the determination and discipline. Am i really so passionate about design that i can hold thru?or am i just so much into making money?? I have been thinking and to be honest i havent found a satisfying answer. but all i can say is that yes i love design and whats more when its all around us?if there is no design, everything would be lifeless. loved art since secondary school days even tho my parents were not very supportive throughout those years on what i have chosen.

i always tell myself to take the easy way out because time doesnt allow me to take the hardworking way out. and so very quickly and last minutely i get work done n alway managed to pull thru but of course with not so good grades. lazy lazy me!!!

now the question is am i ready for that very challenging road ahead of me which i applied for if i get it? yes i love design and im just about to get started on what he has told me to do.(: before that trip to vietnam!! hopefully i can gather nice natural stones and new inspirations for MOG and myself.

before i start on the pix, let me tel u what happened to me this week!it was hectic! first i completed my freelance shit and ok think it was accepted and it was completed on monday. tues morn raffles design called me up to go down n check out their courses available and then 30mins later a graphic design studio called me up to go for a job interview at the very sleazy orchard towers. ewww. freakyyy. then on thursday supposedly i was to meet xs and the rest to discuss some stuff but they couldnt make it so in the end i went shopping with wency!

n guess what? while queuing up for the fitting room at zara a lady right behind me suddenly tapped on my shoulder n told me that i had very nice hair and if i am interested to do a casting for pantene shampoo? i was like what? like that also can. hahaha it was unexpected totally. n so on friday morning after making a trip down to sch to make payment i went for the casting. haha just for the fun of it! not expecting myself to get it also la. nobody is so lucky right? or rather girls! if you wanna be a model and get popular!shop more at taka zara!!! :P

but the first bad omen was marked when i bumped into somebody. omg. tsk tsk tsk it was shocking and disgusting.

haha enough said there was smth that was really good that ALMOST happened to me. DAMN. why wasnt i born liek end of the year or smth!!!???haha

here are pictures taken in chronological order!