Queena is my name.
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Friday, October 21, 2005
i ahte u 9:40 PM
just this morning i experienced pain almost equivalent to the pain of giving birth i think?coz its juz so bad til i had to grab onto smth so hard i almost tore it into pieces and squashing happy. here goes...... my alarm went n i "leaped out of bed excitedly" as i approached the bathroom i felt thsi peircing twisting pain whirlign around my lower abdomen n hmmm near my hmm..ass area..ya rectum lah!yes rectum!! i was lyk oh man..the fart is tryin SO hard to force its way thru.(like god knows how come its having such a hard time) aft struggling for quite a long time it finally got released but still the pain was there!!!OH MY GOODNESS it was so painful its lyk giving birth.living hell!!surviving in agony...oh man..then later it got even more forceful!!i coudlnt take it anymore i headed to the nearest toilet..OH MAN it was juz so hard to push it all out with the pain still eating me inside out. but then finally after i pushed it out..ah..relieve but there was still a tiny bit of pain left lingering around. then it dawned upon me...CANCER. if tt really happens...ppl tel my parents i love them. haha KIDDING then it was school n it ended rather early so headed home straight away intending to practice some maths, but!haha i have nt started til now~!supooseddly to start at lyk 9..hahaha nvm i shall push it til 10~! perhaps its paper one nt tt stressful YET alhto my heart kinda still sank at the thought of o llvs as the same old feeling of failing n doing badly clouds around me. its lyk it juz makes you feel so hopeless and frustrated at urself? that u juz hope u can juz forward time. there's always this dark feeling n this piece of huge rock tied to my heart draggin me down all this while when it comes to maths.juz when i tot i was swiming my way to the surface for some fresh air..it drags me down again. it juz makes me so sick lah. i juz so cant wait for assessment o lvls n everything else to be over!!! then its holis with no worries for maths nor sch work!!wouldnt it be great?? looking forward to it!!hehe ok its 10 sharp!! poofss..**
