Monday, September 19, 2005
lousay day 6:03 PM
todays been a pretty lousy day fer me.really tired lah n the old campus seriously suck.i regret choosing scultpure its killing me.i hate handling wires keep scratching my fingers.fucking pain.n i forgot tt we cant wear slippers.lyk arghhhhh~~super fucked up.then aft tt was history of visual arts.worse.so boring sit there almost felt lyk dying and wasnt feeling well today either very weak overall.lyk anytime my legs r gonna fail me.had slgiht breathing difficulties too. tt amos lah always hurry me hahaha idiot sial.its nt lyk if i walked a tiny bit faster will make any difference. i feel lyk a lousy person overall. i suck at everyting in life.im nvr good at anything lyk wat my dad always say.ya mayb hes right.im always a cold blooded insincere and careless gurl who doesnt care bout wat others toink n feel n totally good for nothing.~im selfish and never spares a thought for the others and never knew how to care or even give a damn.juz mean.mayb i really am.but ims til learning how to feel the right way.im still learning.now its the sec term n im even more slack then ever.juz really tired really really tired.mentally physically.mayb god mgiht juz take me anytime.wouldnt it be better????oh im uttering rubbish again....hahahaok guess i theres nth to blog bout anymore.i feel super lousy.gonna do my figure drawing now...poooffss..**
