-^happiness^-

today woke up early early.went to shower n all then off i went to meet ben n went to his house.had the pasta he cooked.hahah it was nt tt bad after all..juz a lil sour.not enuff salt n water i guess.yeapp besides tt it tasted alright.ohoh n the kitten!!!it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SMALL!!!!damn cute!!!hahaha it was about my palm size.a lil bigger tho.hehe.yeapp very playful also..cute eh...
after which ben washed up bathed n we went out...took a cab down to suntec n caught hide n seek.hahaha ok lahz tt show.a lil surprising tho.but nt bad..had the spooky feeling.was grabbing onto to ben.haha damn stupid.yeahh then ryan was so nice.he gave me this sigg bottle tt says "im2sexy4aglass" lol damn cute.n ben gave me this flower n a pink heart shape mogu.yeah damn nice to tocuh.haha all those were fer my birthday of course...
yeapp so after the movie went fer dinner n had a lil walk n i went home in a cab.comfy comfy.coz my legs were hurting lyk fuck.hehe n ben was relly nice to massage my legs fer me.tts the reason y i love him more each n everytime i see him.=D

alright.so tts all fer today.i skipped alumni cz of ben.but its ok.its been two weeks since i last saw ben so i really had a great time wit him today.missed him a lot.
yeapp but thank god i didnt go fer alumni.i knew it would b a waste of time.n haha my great great son guarded my trumpet.how sweet eh.yup if they dun play better songs im nvr gonna go back.n today mr tay conducted.fuck off n die.hes so into jazz dun conduct lahz.ppl wanna play songs he dun lyk then dun play.screw it alhz then play his stupid slow n boring songs lyk FRENZ FER LIFE.SONG FER FRENZ?Fuck off n die lahz...this is OUR alumni band.we do the saying.u guys r juz too rusty.go home n raise ur families pls.i would nvr wanna go back n degrade myself.i'l wait fer refat man..refat rocks our world!!!!!yeah!!!
ok i guess tts all fer today?yeahhh
speaking about happiness..it has many terms in it.happiness coz of love?love fer wat?my love fer music n of course ben!lol but yeah..life goes on n on in every part of the world.in the streets of london, i always pictured a a beggar begging but was once a very wealthy man but now he has to beg. izzit so tt the real world out there is actually so cruel n unfeeling?n y izzit so everything depends on a piece of paper n signatures n words imprinted by ink which r all worthless?all ink n papers r worthless...but hte power of words makes them smth.they empowers ur knowledge.the amount of knowledge u have in u wether or not u r an empty vessel.qualifications realyl mean tt much?words on a piece of paper really mean tt much to ppl in the society eh?so important.comparisons made 24/7 as ppl struggle to get themselves employed.even tho their passion is so strong n feelings rooted so deep.is tt how a heart wit a community should behave lyk?but too bad.so wat if u ahve?the society doesnt allow u to.coz u do not ahve the qualifications.qualifications but wit no experience.does it work?it take two hands to clap.i nvr believed in the new condcutor coming in.watever~ happiness.sum ppl belive tt it can b done as long as u have as much cash as u can get.if u at look it at a very diff piont of view.its true.money can buy u certain kinda happiness.but it has its limits.it can only satisfy the cravings financial wise.but it cantsatisfy a person emtionally.sumtimes.care n affection n of coruse not to froget attention is needed badly fer a person.but sometimes.god is always unfair he takes away things to put u thru so much agony.prob he jzu wants us to learn how to b tougher n b more independent.but i cant live without MUSIC!!BAND MUSIC!!not some STEWWWWPID JAZZZ which mr TAY lyks.DUMB.yeah ahah i picked up alot of lang habit from refat.bahahaha nvm refat we stick to u fer the rest of ur live liaoz.cannot shake us off wan.BAHAHAHAHA coz we r the students u moulded!!haiz...
alright i guess tts all fer today.one of the longest entry?yeah off i go fer now.POOFS.*..*...*..*..