>>no PAIN no GAIN.<<

right..no pain no gain..well...stil we r holding on.this small group of us...tryin so hard when some have already given up n left the band.leaving the band as their second piority.but as fer me.i dropped the job.went back to the band.juz to let refat know tt i chose the band.n that its stil my first.wel since holiday gt nth to do me n amos decide to concentrate on the band.amos is right..its our responsibility to lpay a part since we've given our word.n huey min too~see tts the spirit trumpeters!!altho i understand tt its been hard on u all~u guys r stil my precious precious members!!i cant affored to lose any of my sec4s..all r lyk my precious gems..esp amos--my son huey min my sweetie n gin my cutie pie!!n yeah lyk prob bcum full time players or watever u call tt.but i've been losing concentration...been distracted by a lot of things tts been occuring in my life unexpectedly n i feel damn stress~even tho its aft exams.of course the band is one of the factors n also my playin ability which i no longer trust 100%.lyk stamina is lyk SHIT now.honestly..wasnt happy at the fest.lyk so messy n all...luan arz~but tmr's gonna b a long long day ahead.so yeah must turn in early tonight unlyk prev nights which i slept late n ended up late fer band as i was either out or tokin on the phone~:P~well...yeah...since ben's working tonight n i've got band...dun think we can tok on the phone anyways...yeapp...then he'l b goin away fer some camp til dunno when.yeah..
about the band...im very tired of teaching n watchin over those members of mine giving them wake up calls n reminding them b4 evry pract.esp the secTWO told her to bring instrument back to sch can sectional tog if not bring home file also can~NO dun wan..ok lhoz...i dun care already..told them not only ONCE but MORE THEN ONCE.FINE IF THEY DUN WANNA LISTEN.i dun care~im not the one who's gonna take over the band.ITS THEM~i dun bother already...i sick n tired of repeating wat REFAT says~~waste my breath.rahter concentrate on those who's willing to work with me to make the concert a success n of course nt to lose face~if they cannot take such criticisms too bad lahz~such insults they think its bad?my god...my sec2 juz wait when i've got time,ur attitude would b shoved away n i dun care must learn..damn irritated when they cant play n refuse to put in effort.or WORSE can play but canot play out or dun DARE wah tt one is qi kek already~wat is this man~stil can gimme face when i ask her to bring home instrument.wtF?AH WATEVER.yeah...

haiz...ohoh sight read today..jap IV aft we were done wit our very won mini sectionals..wells..really hope this cocnert can b a success~

haiz...there's lyk so many things in the way...distracting me n all lyk today playin in band oso so many things keep coming into my mind while i was playin.couldn't concentrate n TADAH~count wrong late again~lyk juz cant snap out of htings i try hard..but my brain refuse to stop multi tasking n if i get carried away..i might juz go on playin n playin..rubbish~refat oso go mad oredi.scold all lyk those nvr scold b4 oso scold.can see tt he damn angry liaoz~but dunno y the band also sot sot wan~haiz dunno lahz dunno lahz
i very VEXED!!!!fer so many things@@@@!!!!arGHH

i dunno i have yet to make a decision.y do humans have to have emotions?


yes no yes no yes no yes no yes no yes no yes no yes no yes no???????

*STOP DISTRACTING ME*