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i dunno y the fuck am i feeling this way yeah but since i cant scold vulguarities..i'l juz use as much as i can here..haha oh damn tmr's report book day..haiz how how how..its gonna b the most terrible day of my life when i show tt report to my dad..yeah lyk oh man..die sia...lyk yeah slight improvment but stil..i think it suckx to me..oh well at least im workin hard now..n i think i dun have much worries?oh wateva..
yeah finally got my hands onto the japIV score..hahaha..yeahhhhh playd it fer a while sight read a few then played challenge oso n all..ok lahz..find them all..juz mayb need refat to get the rhythmn n all right as we need a conductor.n FUCK IT REFAT WE DUN NEED THE ALUMNI TO COME TEACH US.WE WILL NVR WANNA WORK WITH THEM N NEITHER DO WE NEED THIER STUPID USELESS "HELP".WE CAN DO IT ON OUR OWN.SO THEY CAN JUZ JOLLY WELL FREAK OFF...TIS IS PISSING ME OFF MAN~EVRYTIME I SEE THEM STEPPIN INTO THE BAND ROOM OR WORSE EVRYTIME WHEN IS TEP INTO THE STORE ROOM N SEE THE ALUMNI BAND'S LABEL.I FEEL FUCKED UP N START CURSING N SWEARING AT MR HONG FOR DESTROYING THE BAND N ME FOR ONCE AS I HATED BAND ONCE COZ OF HIM.YEAH SO REFAT U SHOULD KNOW WAT TO DO.REJECT THE DEAL~yeah but hey REFAT u did a great job~!i mean u really changed our lives and our opinion towards music..well mayb nt all of us..but i did change my point of view towards music.n u fought hard for us im sure..lyk the band is finally doin SOMETHING.n the school is FINALLY suporting us.IF it was stil MR HONG. i think we wun even be havin "Jubilant" at VCH early next yr as grad concert.n it takes two hands ot clap.its much BETTER workin wit REFAT then tt IDIOTIC ACT CUTE KANASAI PATHETIC CHILDISH HONG.
hmmm..well..then i dunno y but i juz suddenly have this funny n weird feeling towards ben..lyk i cant stand it but..i'm lyk tryin so hard to b nice to him..lyk do i really lyk him?i dun think so?i mean it seem so pointless?lyk..wats the point of goin on?n i dunno..n yes i knw so far i've always been the one stopping the flow..i told myself i wun let Larry's history repeat..but i know it might?well..i dunno juz confused y cant god let the right one come at the right time?i mean..haiz life sucx reallll bad..well been spending lotsa time doin many many papers...so yeah i dun really know wats goin on around me..i dun wanna have my life messed up again..guess i'l call him n clear things up?i dunno?yea let god decide...*God bLess*