im writing this with a heavy heart

i have already completed my final project everything is done and nothing can be changed.

i put in my best efforts i could find during the past few weeks of hectic schedule.

i tried my best to be a diligent student although there were times when i became a tad lazy and decided to lay in bed for a while because i always sleep ard 5am. or not at all.

this is very different from my diploma fyp. diploma fyp was a discouraged last min piece of work because of an ugly fucking bitch who should quit teaching for life because her ruptured face and useless mind kinda kills every potential.

but soon i found a second chance and i hope i made very good use of this second chance that i received.

altho i have to admit laziness did kick in time and time again during this ba course. but im glad that i have my love who waits for me almost every night without fail so that i wont feel so alone deep in the night while i battle with my work.

i have to admit i feel secured knowing that somebody is there even if i feel fucking shitty half way thru because the world just seemed so bleek. somebody i could reach out to frm just a simple phone call.

but now those days r all over. im regaining freedom like how a hatchling is growing wings.

i love the smell of serenity and fresh air. i cannot wait till this week is over and leave my mind alone from design.

loving design and doing design are two very different things.

i love the process but the production will cost u so much not only financially but also physically and mentally. for those who are thinking of taking up design on a general scale. think TWICE.

its nt as easy as it seems. its tougher then plain studying. because it doesnt require u memorise anyting or remember any formula yes but its a mind fucking process that can drown u till u die.

so all designers naturally have a stronger mind then anyone i believe. and now when i look at diploma work. i think its CRAP. i look back and i think my work is crap now. only then did i realise how much this has changed me and my perception of beauty.

to be a designer u have to be able to withstand sleepless nights of not only a day or two but sometimes a week. i sleep a total of 10hrs in a week mind u.

be prepared to age faster then your frens because of your stress level and amount of thinking u have to do.

but i think diploma days r pretty easy to get by for me. i always did work in a snap with the fastest way out and could score sometimes a pretty decent grade and sometimes just a pass. not very proud of it but because i realise that this ba has made me so much stronger both as a person and a designer.

tmr is my final presentation. my work is all set up now waiting to be assessed.

if any fucker were to steal my stash, you WILL burn in hell and die a terrible death like probably getting run over by a monster truck after falling to half ur death from a 40 storey building.

if u still dont die, i guess god has smth else more interesting for you lined up. probably bed ridden for the rest of your life.

yes, so if u steal my stuff. u know wat will happen to u!!!!!

haha

for now wish me all the best!!! and good luck to myself! i hope the lecturers will be in a gooooood mood tmr!

now the first thing i would wanna do after my assessments:

meet up with my love because i have so much to share with him and i hope i can spend as much time as i can with him before he goes to NS ): its starting to take effect on me now. shit. i dun wanna be alone. but its ok i will look forwrd to every sat then. be positive!!!

buy a mothers day present for my mom because she has been chauffering me ard with nt alot of complaints. lol

get a new tank for my tortoises coz they r growing too big and are escaping ALL THE TIME. just wait til happy getchu!!! see if u still wanna escape!!!

get a standing wheel for fishball and pretty, btw those r the names i gave the hammies. fishball is obviously the fat one. she is fat n lazy quite dirty too-.-

consider getting a rabbit twice and beg my mother about it HAHA

shower more love on happy for keeping me company every night too! he is still the master of the house!

keep myself lookin good coz im crap now.-.-

tongiht i shall prepare my thoughts for tmr

good night! time to choose my outfit






the day we went to check out the rabbits three weeks ago.

hey

pls forward this email ard!

this puppy is a cross breed female most likely lost or abandoned. collar still on but the "ace of spades" dog tag is gone. formally discovered on dog before captured by spca. tag was known to be made from Belgium from neighborhood kind souls who fed her.

got captured two days ago and if she is not claimed, she might be put to sleep!

landed property or private housing only.


pls call up SPCA at 62875355 and this is her(the dog aka ace) reference number: 79399

pls help! i really dont want her to be put to sleep.

she was found lost at telok blangah drive. very friendly and seemingly sad and looking for a home!

pls help!

thanks a ton!!

Queena

im officially 21

but im busy sketching and doing my work. how nice~

i should have enjoyed my 21st if i didnt take this bloody bachelors degree!!
next year iw ill celebrate my 22nd at macdonalds ok!! i wil TRY to plan in advance HAHAHA

happy meall

im lovin it

ok tt is all off to bed sick of sketching.

blaaa

how was yours?

mine was pretty out of the ordinary because we went up mount faber by foot!!!! well its ultra near honeys home so yeah... the whole hort park area and the bridges, seats and walks were surprisingly packed with throngs of couples and groups. well nt ultra pack but extraordinarily crowded for such a ulu place. Enjoyed the nice walk in the night and spending good quality time with my honey while munching away on snacks. haha he was really well prepared. we were like the only couple there looking as if we were picnicing lol!!

it was just a casual date:D had dinner at thai accent at vivo!the tom yum soup is superb! cant be compared to thai express. its wayyy better. yumss then finally went to buy the two design books from page one. thank god its on sale!!! wohooo like at last! it was gifts from dear. i gotta think next wat i want. the books costs about 100 altogether after discount! imagine before??? anyhows had some pictures posted on mog and so yeah post it here as well.

atop mount faber!!
celebrated my 21st with a group of friends. will post the group shot once i get it. thanks dear for the cake! tho we were all very stuffed alr.. with the buffet dinner. yes ate LOTSSSS it was buffet at swissotel stamford.
went to paulaner afters (: that is all for now!

ohoh i receieved pretty wonderful gifts that were out of the ordinary which includes a pair of cute hamsters and more. will post pix of gifts up once i receive them all :P

off to do my stupid visual diary for the europe trip bla!

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today i stayed at home, drew and drew. what women really is? you tell me.


took these last thursday while i was out with wency.

im off for the night i don't know why my mind keeps longing for a break. but it just doesn't seem to be leaving its home for a nice vacation. vacations never were long enough.

i think my love for design has grown, but doing what i like that is. if it isnt, it is like a living hell.

my eyelids are heavy and my sockets feels tired and hot

headache is the worse thing ever! i'd rather exchange that for stomach cramps. because i cant think straight or come out wit anything.

my birthday is really approaching and i intend to celebrate it on the 13th. however, i m nt prepared at all and i m only 1week away.

here is my wishlist to help u out a little, they are not in order of important and relevance:

a new watch perhaps?
my cyma is out of battery. but smth new is always nice. guess watches are nt really my kinda thing tho. so pls.


a keyboard protector for my 13"mac book because mine is torn! wheelock doesnt have it!! OOS!!


a wallet. i like the one at gucci but 400plus!should i squander more money? hmmm but agnes b is nice too! i dun like bulky wallets. i like light small slim ones. hate rectagulars and large ones. honey say he'd get a wallet for me but hmmmm is that the best present i can ask from him? haha


i'd love a make up brush set from mac. but nahhh just a WANT not a NEED.


more lovely beads!! i dun like shell beads btw. neither do i like glass beads. check out MOG for my liking of beads :P


revamp my bloody messy pathetic room


a nice lap top leather bag with a handle.again i like slim and compact stuff. gotta look good too. nth flowery and stupid looking. but i love spongebob tho. ha


its been a REALLY long time since i received FLOWERS. what is it like to receive a MEGA huge bouquet? hmmm i wonder


how about bobbie brown gel liner? or was it liquid lotsa ppl r raving about it. but im too lazy to go get it. coz i dun ahve a brush haha!



i'd love these two books u can get at page one or kino if u ahve a discount card:

great britain editorial design

page editorial design

i cant exaclty remember the title but yeah agar agar lol

also i love some nice illustration books! esp women related. very relevent to my fyp ok.


an air ticket to london. HAHA


that is all i can think of now. blaaa


i shall go get some work done.

but before that i'd like to list down some impt things in my life. i dunno y suddenly i feel tt way. it was only when i spent alot more time with Happy lately.

my family- tho yes they can get really annoying. but still i love my home!!!

my dear vince chng. my dad keeps asking if i am gonna marry u for sure.and when do i plan to get married.OMG I AM ONLY GOING TO TURN 21 NOT 30 ... parents -.-

my happy boyyyy- if happy were to die. i think i wil go into depression. no other dog can replace this super dog of mine.

school work and design- it can practically overtake my life and even MOG design ideas when i set my mind on thinking and finding what i want for my fyp.

MOG- mistress of glam is a brand i spent so much effort in building it up. it is liek the fruit of my labour. i can never give it up i guess. and i love to design jewelry with such materials that are not even meant to be together.

my friends- hey i love small warm circle of friends. ((:




that is all for now. did u survive this long entry with no pictures?

amsterdam. near rijik musuem. i cant rem how to spell it. its dutch mind u if u re laugung at me right now.
at balcony last sat after dinner with family and honey bunny.

i fucking tried t upload a picture but blogger just suck to the core(the pix r up now after i wrote these)


fuck


i am trying to do my work. i cannot settle on anything

i feel so lost and depressed about work

how!!


i couldnt find much a inspiration at the library today because the fucking book tt i wanted was nt available


ccb


however i reserved it at kino taka tmr. i will go get it. The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler. very inpsiring book.


i hope it is the fucking right one or else i m gonna freaking kill the sales girl/guy!!!


today at the library was not exactly fruitful because 3/4 OF THE BOOKS I WANTED WAS UNDER THE REPOSITORY WHICH WILL TAKE A WEEK FOR ME TO GET THEM!FUCKING IDIOTIC. . i searched for materials to get the perfect role model. i still cannot digest it now. who is a perfect female role model to you?


well for sure i know its not the below:

mariah carey. too slutty
madonna. freaky shit
britney spears. holy cow, was that your cow which got lost last summer?
dita von teese . i really like her. but it is personal
waris dirie. she is nice but seem like a drug addict
tyra banks. kinda boring
hillary duff. lost teenager


i think enough of my nonsense.


tts all. let me rotttt..